"..they were like a mirror at her weakest moments…"
I'm reading this fabulous book at the moment, The Privileges by Jonathan Dee, and while it is the story of a family, I didn't expect it to provide such a powerful gem. And on a day when the reflection my kids were providing for me was seriously unattractive.
The author is talking about how the mother sees in her children's faces that moment when she has gone too far, when they are frightened of her.
Yep. That hit me where I live.
The bad days are stacking up on one another at the moment. I blame the pointy end of pregnancy. After going through a stage (a couple of stages?) a while back of realising I had lost control of actively parenting and was operating from a point of reaction instead, I am now careful to check in with myself when I feel my mood slipping and my parenting becoming reactive again.
The battle feels completely uphill right now. And I am not winning.
On a normal day, finding a little piece of wisdom from an unexpected source could be just the thing to reboot the system and get back to being the mum…..as opposed to another whine in the deafening chorus.
Alas, today was not a normal day. So I read the gem, thought, "Wow! That's so true. Lightbulb moment!" and then got back to the business of screaming at my children.