26 Little Weeks

by | Oct 16, 2012 | Little Daughter, Little Lady, Little Weeks | 3 comments

 
26 Weeks

One little girl.

A mother's full heart.

 

I went out to dinner tonight. Something I never do. Bren was at home with the kids. With Harlow. At 9:00pm I checked my phone. No messages. I put it back in my bag and didn't check it again for another 50 minutes. It was in silent mode so I hadn't heard the call at 9:08pm. And another, still at 9:08pm. 9:09. 9:10. And I didn't get the terse text that read, "Don't worry about it. She's asleep."

I arrived home at 9:50pm and checked my phone in the driveway. Missed calls. Lots of them. I rushed inside. Bren sat on the couch holding Harlow. Apparently, she had cried for 40 minutes before he decided to call me. Why hadn't I answered my phone?

Naturally, I was wracked with guilt. I felt sick.

Time is flying. It has stolen away my newborn and it plans to go right on stealing away her babyhood, a little each day. But she is still a baby and predominantly, she is my baby. I am her go-to for….most everything and will be for a little while yet.

On the one hand, it is dispiriting to think that it's all but impossible for me to get away for a couple of hours but on the other, it reminds me that I am very much still the mother of a young infant. Time moves fast but my baby girl is still exactly that. My baby.

 

 

Hello friends

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I’m Angie!  I mum. I write. I wife. My husband would say this is the correct order.  He’s so neeeedy. I live with my family in Melbourne, Australia, where I complain about the weather for 90% of the year – but I can’t imagine living anywhere else. Except maybe in Lake Como, waving to my neighbours George and Amal each morning.

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3 Comments

  1. Madeleine

    Ah… the guilt of not being there for a few fleeting hours (and much-needed ‘away’ time), when they’re that age. I remember that. It’s hard 🙁

    On a brighter note, LOVE these pics of your two! xx

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  2. Madeleine

    *you two* Ahem. Definitely no boobs on display here…

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  3. Danielle

    Little Harlow and her Mumma, what a couple!

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